there is always a first time for everything

WOOHOO! today marks the greatest day of the year! because it marks the 19th birthday of the worlds most important person in ten years time!

got a bday off for today so was out celebrating wif someone special on the actual day of my bday!!! haha really really very very happy that she was able to take time off from her busy schedule to celebrate it wif mi! even tho she was bz preparing for her studies she still took like THE WHOLE DAY to be wif me I AM SO TOUCHED :) :) :) THANK YOUUUUU JACJAC!!! :p :p

haha so this morning went for breakfast where she din eat anyth la den i so lost haha cos i was eating den she not eating. lol but nth major happened then la haha other than she was concocting this drink that taste damm weird la haha but tho its weird it just tastes quite sweet to mi la haha i also dunno y :P

wa den after that was like the most tiring thing lor, suddenly went missing on mi i scoured thru the entire entire building including the mrt station to find her lor haha but tho it was tired my only thought was just to find her...

after that went to watch movie laa but quite predictable plot tho the ending quite stupid. i just went there to hear the songs haha but OBVIOUSLY i think i go more for the company than anyth else...

WOO!!! after that went park wif sea i think thats the place where i will have so manymany unforgettable memories laa, where there are the firsts of alot of things! :P:P ALTHO I NOE I DUN SING WELL LA but no need say until like that rite :( :( :( break my heart only! sing songs, go into the sea, and on the way back altho we lost our way abit BUT STH WONDERFUL HAPPENED!!!! NOT ONLY WONDERFUL BUT JUST NICEEEEE LA! u may not think much about the gesture but it means alot to me noe SO I AM LIKE DAMM HAPPY WOOHOO like happy until cannot sleep like that? hahaha!!!

ok enuf abt today i think i talked alot alr haha

-exeunt-

it has only been one night but i realised i have been missing some people terribly i miss e messages people sent. I kept on looking at my phone waiting for messages den i realised that some people are not going to reply me. 2 weeks is a bloody long time! Wat does one do if people just keep running in ur mind and u cant do anyth about it? I noe i say all this nobody will believe me alr i might even sound patronising towards... Hai but wat can i do? Its all my fault. A case of being an indecisive and insecure failure and a bugger who is not good wif words. Hai

-exeunt-

i dunno wat to say anymore. words have failed me when they usually dun. i think i am a piece of shit who goes around screwing up wif peoples life even though i din mean to? and "sorry" just intensifies the guilt and dilemma i am having now? WTF!

i think i have already gotten the answer to my question believe it or not, and 2 weeks seem like an eternity, i dun think i will even last thru tonight. i have become a walking zombie over a few hours? this is incredibly f****d up. LEONARD!!! ITS OK IF UR OWN LIFE IS SCREWED UP! WHY SCREW OTHERS LIVES TOO!!!

i think i should just disappear from the face of this earth, its not suitable for a scum to live in.

-exeunt-

hmmmmm wat should i post about???

haha yes yes! my course is finally over!!! woo! the first three days of the week was simply shagged and tiring! but over is over haha i am done wif it!

lol but the whole of 5 weekdays was just dull and boring la except that i had very good company in the form of my handphone! haha! was just using it 24/7 lor even at like 3am! lol cool rite!

haha! anw today was damm fun! haha! muz make use of my precious little weekend so went out again! played parapara as usual lor haha! ay got ppl say i pro lei lol! should be unsurprising la haha considering how masterful i am wif that machine liao! but i think i rather play ddr! its more fun! haha! i think i dumped like tons of money into both of that machines la haha, if i neva played both of them i think i would have like saved thousands of dollars alr lol! den my wallet will not be like having the hole in the ozone layer! lol

but i think playing both these games can really impress ppl one lei! haha obviously muz be pro first la else why u play rite! get laffed at only! like u play den one whole crowd sudenly form up behind u! wa that adrenaline rush really song lor!

haha other than that still went to talk kok lor. i think sitting down and talking is like one of the best ways to pass time la! u get to noe the person u are talking to better and also you3 shuo1 you3 xiao4, just fun lor!

lol and liverpool won man u for the first time in the league rite! haha man u sucks alr la i tell u! oh and its spelt GERRARD! lol
ok la nth to say liao quite tired

-exeunt-

forgetting sarah marshalls

ok now that i am properly rested and preoperly nourished, i can update my wekly post a little properly... haha

the whole week in my workplace was so slack la but on thu got range... hai feeling damm down after the whole bloody thing... I jux simply dun understand why that two hundred bucks was there for the taking and i just let it fly away! and before the range i was as usual talking big and say sure get two hundred dollars one! was shooting for two years got like so much experience it should be a piece of cake. DEN I F*****G screwed up! missed 4 in the day! how the hell do u miss 4 in the day when u have been holding a pistol for two years and aiming at a spot as big as ur fingernail!? ppl told me pistol very different from the weapon i am holding now. got much much more recoil and u using two hands now. but shouldn the technique I learnt before be able to be applied to the place i am going now??? what is more bewildering is that i missed at the easiest series! where not only do u use two hands u have external support! wtf wtf wtf! i am damm bloody pissed wif myself!

ppl think i am damm slack in my workplace but thats cos i dun see the need to be so on the ball, but when i finally am on the ball, i should just dash past everyone else in a flash. this activity was the first i am actually enthusiastic about! but wats the result! same old pitiful pass only! it has seriously got me thinking about myself and my character. do i actually think i am the best in everything? i concede that there are always ppl better than me but i always thot i am also high up above e majority. this has actually brought me crashing down to reality and go back to being part of the majority. which means i am just one of the COMMONers, which is not wat i am striving at totally! the first activity which i tried my best at actually gave me an identity crisis! how ironic! i think i should just stop putting in my best den!

and the worst part was when another got the two hundred dollars. i am not jealous or anyth, i am just pissed wif myself for being so worthless when i am always looking down on that another. trust me i am not starting to respect him or anyth, but more on feeling depressed.

ppl say that two years does not count when shooting this different type of weapon, but thats just words of comfort... wil and chris still did very well in it dun they! HAI...

ok so feeling depressed on thu, decided to go and make myself happier on bookout day! went to watch forgetting sarah marshalls (which should be the main point of my entry) wif zhexi after going home. supposed to met at 8 in the end met at 2040h! lol reached plaza sing @ 2105h! and caught the 2125h show! (I LOVE NUMBERSSS) so during the 20 min went arcade and persuaded zhexi to play ddr! haha! :P for a person who wants to be a wushu coach his leg eye co-ordination sucks totally!! haha was laughing at his failure to clear a 3 star song, should have seen how his LOOOONG legs moved man!!! LOL

ok so went to watch the show and its m18 for a very stupid reason OMG! the guy was stark naked! wtf lor i was like next time when they put the rating m18 for nudity they should bracket it wif (M) or (F)! like that den audience knows wat to expect rite! haha not that i am some sicko or sth la but i am thoroughly grossed out by this fat naked object staring back at me!

ok but all in all the movie had basically no plot but it was nonetheless funny wif lots and i mean lots of sexual innuendoes! was laughing out like damm loud la cos it was quite funny! haha! although one thing i feel quite disturbed about is how casual americans regard sex! they barely knew each other for few hours before they can already have sex like WTF! and those pure females who said"i'm not the kind for one night stands" actually knows a guy for 3 days before going to bed wif him WOW THATS LIKE AN ACHIEVEMENT RITE???

lol the movie ended at 11 plus and it was quite late and it feels also quite gay to be out wif just another guy till so late! haha weanted to go clarke quay after that de but too tired la... go there talk kok wif him also quite pointless lol den zhexi was like go there not talk one go hook up HAHA den i was like ya get 4 girls rite! one on the left and one on the right! den after that switch! LOL he was like cannot... liddat cannot focus! LOL! such a faithful guy zhexi!!! haha!

so after watching the movie i ended up wanting to watch more movies! lol cos the trailers all so nice lor! but first must watch WALLEEEEEEEEEEEE!!! haha! this one as i told ppl must watch wif girls one! watch wif guys really supremely gay la pls! haha!

next is tropic thunder! den house bunny and all the boys love mandy lane!!! WOOHOO!!! who wanna watch any of these shows come tell mi!!! i will definitely go!!! WOO!!!

-exeunt(leaving the scene/exit)- (know the meaning now? haha)

ipod classic

WOOHOO!!!! i have finally lain my hands on a new 80gb ipod classic!!! hahah went through so much waiting to finally get a free ipod! WOOHOO!!! LOL but 80gb is really alot sia i almost want to vomit blood trying to put all my songs into the device alr! put finish only use about 10gb lor lol! of cos i still added lots of coolio movies that involve lots of korean chio bus like han ga in and jeon ji hyun!!! WOO!!!! lol

hai going to exercise again where there are commando mosquitoes around. hai hai hai...

talking about ppl talking abt uni

Weekly updates for this week!
first things first, I AM PASSING OUT IN 2 WEEKS TIME WOOHOO!!! and in two more weeks we will all be free!!! haha

ok anyways was blog reading some of the ppl that i noe and most of them was about uni stuff and uni lessons. i feel like i am missing out lots of things like fooling ard wif frens and diaoing the lecturers haha! kinda reminiscing (is that the correct spelling lol) again about RJ life haha why wun time stand still when i am in jc why why why!!! everyone just tells me my time will come when i go back to uni and start studying haha but two years is quite a long time in doing sth that will not have any relevance in my life in the future! already i feel some of my frens feel very tired about me whining to them about the place i am currently attached to. hai...

I really fear what i will be like in two years time. already my speech is deterioriating exponentially i dunno if by the time i ORD i will be able to hold a normal conversation wif someone. there was this day i was arguing wif someone (not surprising) but the surprising thing was i actually stopped in my sentence midway trying to recall the word that i was going to use! OMG i was like wtf! what is happening to me! why are the normally spectacular words that are commonly associaterd wif me suddenly deserting me!!! what is happening to my grasp of the purus lingua! i think i am damned. what if in the late october i cant even hold a sophisticated conversation wif the oxford interviewers? haha hongkan liao lor.

lol ytd was forced to go rsaf open house (actually i will gladly go la if they dun force me also or else how to end early rite!) anw highlight of ytd was wat happened after the open house---drumrolls----- I WENT HOME AND SLEEP!

lol no la haha i decided to recharge my brain intellectually and went on a long journey to nus and decided to crash a physics lecture haha! wrong choice (not wrong choice in going there but wrong lecture to crash haha) but more on that later. when i reached there i saw eechong bloody hell stupid guy disrupt! i also want to disrupt! anw, when i saw all of them holding onto books and chatting happily i find myself quite distant from them haha! haha its like a case of so near yet so far! u can see them but cant reach out to them lol...

aiya away from the emo stuff! as i said i went to crash this physics lecture! and the topic was on some sort of music theory and wat frequency shit lol! wat c minor wat a b c d e f g also dunno wat the lecturer saying. den i asked my friend wat was the relevance in taking this, how will this affect ur future life. she said if she din take it, she would be taking a math module, which in my perspective is absolutely more practical rite not rite not! haha! and i think nus should try expanding their lecture theatre lol in the end our group was like sitting wif our backs against the wall on just a chair la... not even a table lololol. y so pathetic one!

i dun regret going all e way to nus noe in case somebody keep telling me i regret, REASSURE U K :P haha its been quite great talking to u again noe (face to face!) haha, esp on the mrt! :P

so after crashing nus, i went to city hall go comex wif chris tang, den some stupid prc in the station ask me how to get to funan. very difficult to explain in chinese so just told him dunno, in the end that fag asked me if i from singapore! like wtf! in wat way do i not look local??? in the end went comex for only half hour cos we spent our time eating at some jap restaurant! WOO SASHIMI IS GREAT esp salmon those fresh ones just melt in ur mouth, blissful blissful!!! :P :P :P

one last random note to add i think jeon ji hyun is damm hot like SIZZLING HOT!!! haha but not chaota ok! not chaota!