my home feels like a prison now... how ironic within a span of one week, the joy of booking out has diminished to the extent of booking in now holds more joy than booking out. all thanks to the six day MC the doctor gave... was whooping at the good fortune of such a long holiday but alas it was more of a 6 day imprisonment at lo and behold! MY OWN FREAKING HOME!!!

i as so freaking pissed by their inability to process even little bit of information! why the hell am i cooped up here? because i am sick! so why cant my frens come visit me? cos u might spread to them. den i am well now why cant i get the hell outta here??? cos ur resistance is weak and other ppl outside may den spread to u! wat utter nonsensical reasoning is this shit!!! so if im well ppl may spread to me and if im sick i may spread the illness to ppl! WOW! and 1+1 is suddenly 4! i am amazed at how such little nuggets of information can be analysed into rubbish pieces of logic...

ANW i am thanking my lucky stars i can finally book in tonight, away from the horrors of this house... and ppl have been asking me why i wanna go overseas to study... !@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@I want to spew so much vulgarities i tell u but i am controlling right now... and just cos i coughed out abit, i am now forced to take cough medicine even after gulping down one whole bottle the previous few days!!!! ARGH!!!!!

lol ok there done! :P

I am kinda not doing anyth rite now so maybe i should blog? haha last weekend just had a commissioning parade for wil! wa he look so shuai lor haha kidding.... :P actually he dun! oops... anw parade was nth nice laa just bang here bang there den i was supposed to get some angbao den wil neva gimme :(:(:( sobs... den wils pickcap so big den he wear look jlaf lol... im bored... but i think the after parade activities are more interesting, esp when i saw the lightsabers blinking... so nice lor... asked them help me take all of them dowan help me take... so selfish :(:(:( boo...

i was prompted to update however i am losing interest in blogging lol... this sucks but maybe i shld close down the stupid blog lol... sian sian sian...

i am bored.............

im back

ok after one month of inactivity TGO is finally back! :P haha screw the damm computer laa die so quickly like only have one half yr of life only den die on me! like wth lol... thats y i am absent for such a long time.. lol not that i am using my own comp to blog now laa considering i am still in the office lol BUT THATS SERIOUSLY BESIDES THE PT :D the point is im back and thats all it matters this one mth has been quite happening u know! lol went to watch 2 movies in two days which one of them absolutely suck big time cos of keanu reeves that bugger who can only keep a straight and poker face. in matrix he was like that, in matrix reloaded he was like that, in matrix revolution he was like that; in constantin he was like that, to a certain extent in lake house he was also like that altho i kinda enjoyed lake hse hahaha. AND LO AND BEHOLD! in the day the earth stood still he gave me that same poker face which is so easily reproduced by ian wern i was so surprised why iw din get as popular as Keanu. hahaha! so basically the setting changed and i think u can put neo in the day the earth stood still and constantin in the matrx and u wun ever see the difference... u wun even feel the difference i tell u! haha!

then on sat watched 4 christmases wif this indian fren OOOOOO TGO actually has an indian fren! SURPRISING RRITEEEE!!! ok anw i was asking him to say 4 tickets for 2 christmases but den apparently he din thot it was funny and obviously i din think it was funny too! LOL... anw that show quite funny laa haha i actually learned a new fact which is the capital of China: Hong Kong :P:P:P and a scene from the movie actually reminded me of city harvest haha no offence pls but quite funny lol...

anw! b4 that movie i actually was playing bowling wif the fren of mine and i totally owned him cos in the first game he scored a proud score of 2! LOLOLOL can u blif that or not! cos i actually dun blif until i saw him in action, inaction rather haha...

hai sian laa i am bored of this life... tried to feel happy to lift my own spirits up but failed again... hai i was jux having this gathering on sunday wif my jc frens and it was quite heartening to see we can actually talk like we were still in jc haha but the frequency of this is dwindling and i am honestly speaking very afraid one day these kinda gatherings will be gone... one of my good frens assured me that it will neva happen when i was telling this worry to her last time and apparently when u go diff paths and get separated u will distant urself naturally... not blaming anyone here but i feel i am getting very distant from some of my closed frensand its like some are so bz and preoccupied wif their current lives their frens ceased to exist... its like everytime its me asking ppl how are they doing how are they feeling whether they are stresses wanna go out or not, whats changed in their life... and when i din ask them they will neva naturally ask mi these kinda questions... so am i just foolish to believe that frenships will last? even if u are leading separate lives? or am i just trying too hard to be close to them and they will only reply when i asked abt them but other than that, they will not even bother about me... i feel quite non-existent... i may be the vocal one but if everytime i am the one being vocal den wun it kinda defeat the purpose?

is TGO such a guy that is taken for granted or just an insignificant guy? i find it quite ironic that TGO is my alter ego but its actually none of that in real life... maybe i have only two true frens in my life who asks about me and takes note of my existence and i feel truly grateful to them... needless to say both are guys... hai... some of the other i thot are closed frens whom i thot i could talk to for very long and wud be frens forever and whom i even poured my soul out to b4 are not here anymore... is this sad or is it just me?

-exeunt-

sianz!